This journal is lengthy, but I encourage you to read it. It may expand your view of the world.

First off, does anyone know if there's a program to download a file from Newgrounds, or does the site offer their files for use? If so, any info would be greatly appreciated!

So, (and do NOT flame him for this...you will die...painfully) through my friend ~Ehldriel 's journal, I found this Newgrounds audio submission ( [link] ) that's supposed to help with the meditation, and eventually, transformation, process of achieving full otherkinism.

Now, I do not dispute Ehldriel's claim that it works, but I tried it about an hour ago, with rather weak results. This is probably due to a deep-seated disbelief in hypnosis, and the fact that I am not one to easily focus on something like a voice. What I did get out of it was rather surprising (my expectations honestly weren't high) : I got a cold, immobile feeling in my hands, my gaming ability was altered during the listening (explained below), and I did feel more at ease, and, despite the fact that I messed up quite a few times in the game I was playing, was less prone to cursing the game, even in my head. The calm feeling continued for some time afterwards and I was even less fond of 'death-metal' (my usual music choice). Wound up listening to Phil Collins.

Now, for gamers, this audio file has a profound effect on gaming ability, at least for me. I've only tried it with a racing game thus far, but it seems this bit of audio decreases specific prowess-es, but makes the player more consistent. Translated into an FPS format, this would mean say, a sniper who is only good at sniping, could listen to the audio and use a machine gun or shotgun just as well. What it did for me was make me less able to get into 1st position in a race, but it also allowed me to not crash nearly as much as I normally would.

Now, like I said, my results were disappointing. I've got 4 reasons for this:

1. Terms. The speaker used the terms 'furry' and 'obedient' many, many times. I do not like either of these words, nor do I believe myself to be either of them.
2. My mental will is not easy to crack. I rarely submit to suggestions that I do not agree with.
3. I have yet to try the trigger phrase, "Morph to a (gender), (age), (species)". (pretty sure I forgot one...don't forget one...) I'm probably going to listen to the recording several times before I do this, to alleviate any doubt I have about it, and to be sure I'm in the right state of mind for it.
4. I really do not believe in mind tricks like this. At least I didn't used to. Nowadays I seem to be becoming open to more and more concepts I used to dismiss as crap.

IS more knowledgeable than me on this ideal, and has had dramatic success with the file. He is, as far as I know, of sound mind and sound body and not a 'loon' in any way. So, if you have any questions I can't answer here, go ask him. I'd read his past few journals about the audio before trying it. If it works the results can be rather disturbing if let run loose. I do not dub him a certified expert (no offense meant) on the topic, but he is my superior on it.

And one last note, if you try it and it doesn't work, maybe try playing it on repeat while you sleep. Studies say you can learn 5 times as much in 6 hours of sleep than in the same amount of waking time!

[link] (it's on FA, get over it)